purpose

thank you to all who have said hello and sent wishes. it's been really tough lately. i told mom the other day that i was questioning my purpose in life. still trying to figure it out really. i have so many feelings on the subject and to be honest im still wondering. after going thru the last 4 days with my sister and seeing her pain and not being able to take it away has brought it all back to the surface. now not only do i question my purpose but others as well. why are we here if in the end we all go away anyhow? what is the purpose of living and laughing and crying and hurting and then leaving this earth. im sorry for the downer blog today, i just dont understand it.