happy easter

wanted to get a quick post in before going to bed. the house is "cleaned", Easter breakfast is in the fridge, keira will be put down shortly and then the baskets can get filled with goodies. Dan and the boys are at a gamblers game tonight so hopefully they come home good and tired so that i don't have to stay up till all hours of the night before i can hide their baskets!! this mom is tired and worn out...i just need sleep! may you all have a blessed day tomorrow and make memories in whatever you do. and yes Gerri, i will try to remember to take the plastic off of the ham before cooking it! haha.
love to all,
carin

purpose

thank you to all who have said hello and sent wishes. it's been really tough lately. i told mom the other day that i was questioning my purpose in life. still trying to figure it out really. i have so many feelings on the subject and to be honest im still wondering. after going thru the last 4 days with my sister and seeing her pain and not being able to take it away has brought it all back to the surface. now not only do i question my purpose but others as well. why are we here if in the end we all go away anyhow? what is the purpose of living and laughing and crying and hurting and then leaving this earth. im sorry for the downer blog today, i just dont understand it.

Just a little note...

I know it's been forever and a day since i last posted and i'm sorry. I've been hiding i guess. From myself mostly. You have no idea how many times i've written a post only to delete it. I need you all to know that your hellos and hugs dont go unnoticed. i embrace all of them knowing that as small as i may feel sometimes, there is a huge circle of people out there that have me in their thoughts. thank you and consider yourselves all hugged right back!

one thing i have been doing lately is listening to the words of songs more closely. it's pretty amazing how many of them seem to be singing right to you. i got the new pink cd for christmas and all i can say is wow.

Love....

credits-CJS "Love"kit, qp by Mom

To Carin....

This is what happens when your Mom helps set up your Blog...she gets to sneak in here when your not looking and do stuff like this.
Hubby and I have had the joy of having Keira and Zack spend a few days with us, it has been fun, interesting and left me with the greatest admiration for my daughter. We only had two of the kids. Carin deals with 4 sometimes 5 of them all the time. I for one couldn't do that. Not just because of the age difference, but because it is a 24/7 thing. There really are no breaks.
Dan works out of town most of the time which leaves Carin both Mom and Dad. Not easy. She is like a single Mom, dealing with everything from the kids to the house, making sure everything is the way it should be. There are time when I know she feels like she is failing, she is wrong. I watched Zack treat Keira with love and caring. If how these two act is any indication of the job she is doing...well she should get a raise. I know she's my daughter I should feel this way, I would be saying this about anyone in this position. Because she's my daughter I am that much more proud of her, that much more in awe of her and love her that much more!
Yes Gracie, I love you, I am proud to be your Mom! Have fun tonight and see you in the morning!! ( you are coming early right??!!) LOL

"every day think of one thing that you are gratefull for"

got an email from an old friend today. the title is what she said to me. and so for today i will think of this song that is playing and i will remember watching my mom and her sisters standing in our shower on christmas eve doing their best to harmonize and most of all make memories. I miss you so much aunt patti but i am gratefull you were a part of my life and you will always be in my memories.

I wanted to wish everyone a very merry christmas and happy new year. I hope everyone makes memories that last a lifetime.
love,
carin